Nov 22 2008
Banyo Queen
There it goes again… I can feel it shaking my whole being, and rocking my world to the core. I’ve felt this way a hundred times before but today is nothing like the rest. Today’s different, way too different…
Ah…where do I start describing this sensation?… I want to indulge and give in to it but I’m afraid it just might be too painful. Will the pain be worth it? Will I be satisfied in the end? It’s just too much to ignore. I guess I have to give it a try or I’d end up feeling sorry for myself for not trying…
I can feel my heart pounding so fast and so loud. My whole body’s diaphoretic Im bathing in my own sweat! My knees have weakened like a candle slowly burning. I gotta hold on, I gotta grip on something for support. Oh, let this pass…or I will pass out myself.
Whew!
After 3 long, agonizing days of feeling bloated and heavy, it’s such a great relief to finally let it all out! And I mean all of it! Out into the bowl and into who-knows-where it goes to after that, I really don’t care anymore. All I care about right now is this feeling of “high” I got after this ordeal.
Oh, how I feel so alive. Halleluiah!
