Inside My World

You’re floating amidst the clouds and feeling high one moment and then…BAM! You get knocked up and then suddenly stars surround your dizzy head. How you got blinded you didn’t know, but you knew you loved the feeling at first…

…And then after realization dawned on you, you feel sick, the bitter taste of tears welling up your eyes and soaking your pillow, till you’re left drained of your strength and you drift off to the most unrestful sleep you ever had…

The morning brings a new sunshine for some but in your heart you feel only storm clouds forming, casting gloomy shadows upon your weary soul. And you don’t know when you’ll start to feel better again…time becomes your ally for now, till you don’t recall a thing anymore about the pain, the tears, the heartache…

Blinded. That’s how you were. But for now, the scales covering your eyes have fallen off, and it’s now up to you to pick up the shattered pieces of you and start rebuilding…start dreaming…

And when the time comes you’re likely to get blinded again. That’s how the world works. It’s a cycle, a neverending one. But you can break the chain. Yes you can! I know you can…

1. I have a lot of aliases. My friends call me Mace or Cel, but my family and close relatives call me Shirley.

2. I love to SING! I’m a videoke addict! Wag na wag mo pahawak sa ‘kin ang mikropono PLEASE sobrang allergic ako dyan hahaha! (Actually, secret natin ‘to ha, nanalo ako dati sa singing contest
3. I am FICKLE-minded. Yes, este no pala.

4. I’m a certified HOMEBODY. Wala nga ako night life eh. Pero may social life din naman ako… Di ako autistic!

5. I’m a CLEANAHOLIC. Siguro sa past life ko atsay ako. O kaya janitress…

6. I am very SECRETIVE. I have tons of skeletons in my closet… (Michael Jackson’s “Thriller” playing at the background). My journal is my best friend; very safe sa kanya ang mga secrets ko hehe.

7. I tend to get CRAZY when I’m in love. As in “windang” ako at nagpapakagaga kapag na-inlove.”People do crazy things when they’re in love…” (Sigh!)

8. I can be a MONSTER when I’m angry. Sabi ng kapatid at pamangkin ko masungit daw ako… Maririnig mo na lang na kakalabog ang pinto o  pinggan (mga paborito kong pagdiskitahan hehe) pag galit ako. But sometimes, I tend to just clam up and keep silent.

9. I am blood type “B”. (Just in case…)

10. I have skin ASTHMA. Lagi ako may baon na antihistamine in my bag.

11. I have OILY skin. Kaya tuloy acne-prone ang beauty ko…
12. I DON’T have a green thumb. Lahat na lang ng tinatanim kong halaman namamatay huhuhu! 
13. One of my dreams is to travel to at least 10 COUNTRIES before I die. Hay ang tanda ko na di ko pa nauumpisahan baka kulangin na ko ng oras…
14. I have a SWEET tooth. Utang na loob wag mo ko bigyan ng tsokolate at ice cream ayoko magka-diabetes someday…

15. I want to do BALLROOM dancing. Kaya lang wala kasi ako pambayad ng DI at lalo wala akong mga ka-outfitan kaya pag-iipunan ko muna.

16. I find it easier to communicate through WRITING. I nosebleed lalo na ‘pag straight English ang usapan hahaha!
17. I have low EQ. Aminado ako madali ako mafrustrate. Pag problemado ang lola nyo, punong-puno ng tigidig ang kanyang fes.

18. I don’t go to sleep without applying lip balm. Yes, instead of moisturizer, lip balm ang ina-apply ko! Malay mo, biglang umappear sa panaginip ko si Prince Charming di ba, kaya kelangan soft and supple ang lips…hehehe.

19. I don’t leave the house without these three in my bag- sunblock, umbrella and cell phone. Kelangan pa bang i-memorize yan?!

20. Fashion is my passion- in my dreams!!! Hahaha! Gusto ko din mag-aral ng COSMETOLOGY para matuto naman ako mag-make-up ng sarili ko.

21. I easily CRY over small things. Soapy dramas make me cry. “Babe” and “While You Were Sleeping” never fail to make me cry even if I’ve seen these films a couple of times na.

22. I am a bit on the STINGY side- now. But I used to be an impulsive buyer then, pero sa hirap ng buhay ngayon dapat muna mag-esep-esep bago bumunot sa wallet…
23. I have a strong INTUITION. Promise! Minsan nga iniisip kong gawing sideline ito eh hahaha! (Beware Madame Auring!)

24. I LOVE my family. Doesn’t everyone of us do?

25. I want to fulfill my dreams the soonest possible time but then again I try to live one day at a time… I want to be the best I can be. I know I am capable of something more than what and who I am now… I want to go out of my comfort zone- try to experience new things, explore the outdoors, meet new friends, travel and experience different cultures… One day I believe my dreams for myself will become a reality… And then someday, I want to be remembered as someone who has made a difference in this world when I finally take my exit. I know marami pa kelangan ayusin sa buhay ko pero  sana nga  magawa ko ‘to…