Mar 20 2009
Blinded
You’re floating amidst the clouds and feeling high one moment and then…BAM! You get knocked up and then suddenly stars surround your dizzy head. How you got blinded you didn’t know, but you knew you loved the feeling at first…
…And then after realization dawned on you, you feel sick, the bitter taste of tears welling up your eyes and soaking your pillow, till you’re left drained of your strength and you drift off to the most unrestful sleep you ever had…
The morning brings a new sunshine for some but in your heart you feel only storm clouds forming, casting gloomy shadows upon your weary soul. And you don’t know when you’ll start to feel better again…time becomes your ally for now, till you don’t recall a thing anymore about the pain, the tears, the heartache…
Blinded. That’s how you were. But for now, the scales covering your eyes have fallen off, and it’s now up to you to pick up the shattered pieces of you and start rebuilding…start dreaming…
And when the time comes you’re likely to get blinded again. That’s how the world works. It’s a cycle, a neverending one. But you can break the chain. Yes you can! I know you can…
hello sis…what happened? whatever it is…i am just here and keep on trying to break the chain…i know you can…and yes, you can…
Hi Cel, I would like you to know that I believe in you, I have faith that you can break the chain, yes you can!! I got those feelings several times in my life too (especially during a break-up, I get fat so fast since I no longer have control over my health…I just in a snap become lazy)….but time heals…and give us a clearer perspective to life again. Just like a passing storm, after the rain, we see the bluest sky, so clear, and if ever we get blinded again, we just have to remember, that it is not our falls that define us, it is how we learn from these falls, pick up the pieces and stand firmly again as we move on with life that makes us. Our good God forgives, He is gracious, He is patient with us. anyway, sorry Cel if I rambled, all I want to say is, like Zen, I am just here….even if I am just an email away, but I am here, heehehehe! Take Care.
hi, cel, i miss you, and am happy to be reading this blog. i can also relate with zen, beth, and you - i guess we all somehow go through the phase. it is so very hard to get over something or someone you hold so dearly in your heart. if it helps, try to focus on whatever is in the present. concentrate on the job at hand. the past has its way of healing itself so it doesn’t hurt us again. i am also just an email away. take care…
hi, cel, i don’t know what you’re going through right now (or did you write this for one of your friends?), but what you wrote sounds, oh, so familiar. ah, lemme see … maybe coz i’ve been there, too (through what you just described). and i have to say- many times:( i like what you declared at the end of your blog though: this is the way the world works, and yet YOU CAN BREAK THE CHAIN. this is so true, cel, and i thank you today for this timely reminder. so if you are describing a break-up you are going through right now, i have great faith you will emerge from this experience just fine, and that this time, you will break the chain. i know this for a fact because i can sense the strength and determination through your words. i can also sense pain … but for the most part, i feel your optimism and that never-give-up, never-say-die attitude. and that is a great thing, cel. hang on to that. you will be fine. just like everyone else, pls. know that i’m just an e-mail away. stay strong, cel.
And when the time comes you’re likely to get blinded again. That’s how the world works. It’s a cycle, a neverending one. But you can break the chain. Yes you can! I know you can…